If you didn’t love God, you wouldn’t be reading this. I am ashamed to say; sometimes I have a hard time believing. In another six months, I’ll be like the lame man waiting 38 years for his healing. No, I’m not lame, but like many of you, I’m weary, waiting on a promise from God. I know God can; I know He is able. So why do I have a hard time believing?
We say we believe God, so why do we fret, worry, have anxiety, and stress. Do we really know what it is to believe?
According to Noah Webster, “Believe” means: “To have a firm persuasion of anything. In some cases, to have full persuasion, approaching to certainty; It is often followed by “in” or “on,”especially in the scriptures. To believe on is to trust, to place full confidence in, to rest upon with faith.”
“To them gave he the power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name.” (John 1:12)
In theology, “to believe” sometimes expresses a mere assent to the gospel, as in the case of Simon in Acts, chapter 8. For others, the word also implies a yielding of the will and affections, accompanied by a humble reliance on Christ for salvation. See John 1:12 and 3:15.
I have done some soul searching, questioning my walk with God. I want to know Him. If I truly know Him, I will believe Him.
John’s writing of the gospel is different from the others. I don’tsee any parables, and I only found seven or eight miracles. The feeding of the five thousand is listed by all four writers. The other six miracles are only in the book of John. I don’t see the word “faith” used in his book except in “faithless.” When he does say “faithless,” it is followed by “but believing” in John 20:27. Yet, the word “believe” is used 85 times.
According to childresearch.net, a fetus hears and can recognize its mother’s heartbeat. Mothers hold their children on the left side of their chest. The infant is calmed and sleeps better, all because they know their mother’s heartbeat. John knew his master’s heartbeat. He didn’t have to see the miracles to believe.
“Now there was leaning on Jesus’ bosom one of his disciples, whom Jesus loved. Simon Peter therefore beckoned to him, that he should ask who it should be of whom he spake. Simon Peter therefore beckoned to him, that he should ask who it should be of whom he spake.” (John 13:23-25)
John knew who Jesus was. The other writers told of His life and history, but John spoke of His divinity, His origin.
“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.” (John 1:1,14)
I want to draw close enough to hear his heartbeat.